Rachel told me I should update my blog . . . I have to be honest . . . I have no idea of what to blog about this time. I noticed I had started a new blog entry on August 8th, opened it, hoping I would have something to work with, and was disappointed by the fact that it was blank: Blogger's Block?
It's been almost two months since the last entry. Tarah's been long gone and I'm sure much has happened during that time . . . New friends, new places, more trips, more bike rides, more work . . . But the questions remain in my head, "What do people want to know? What do they want to read about? Why do they read and what do they care about? What's narcissism? What's sincerity and openness with us and our lives? What do I have to say or share that's worthy of their time?" I suppose honesty and sincerity are valued. I suppose not dressing things up or "packaging" them perfectly to make them more glorious than they actually are is valued.
Picture to the left is courtesy of Jeff and Cindy; used without permission but my boyfriend took it, so I have rights! Right?. : )
I realize part of relationship with people is the sharing of yourself with another, and, part of caring for one another is knowing what is happening in one anothers' lives. So, to hold up my end of the bargain (and my apologies to those who did not bargain for this!): There have been many activities, trips, things, thoughts, feelings . . . There have been many thoughts of the debate in my head concerning narcissism and self-absorption versus genuine vulnerability with who we are and our real lives. There have been times of speechlessness as a result--feeling like everything's been said or said too much or that words are insufficient. All the activities and consumption of California (or what this area of California has to offer) are starting to be drowned out by the cry of wanting something more significant than consumption, "talk," or packaging. I'm itching to "do" something, see change, love better with the breath of time I've been given here. There is more to do than take trips and more to behold. This begs the question, "So, what are you going to 'do'?" The goal is to get these school loans paid and go overseas to do some medical mission work. In the meantime, I'm ready to find something here to invest time in--volunteering or a ministry to be a part of. Oncology nursing used to be ministry--meaning that's where I could "pour out" and, as they say in basketball, "leave it all on the floor." But, my current nursing job, although it requires love and investment as well, is not quite as ministerial, and doesn't require the same type of emotional energy as oncology nursing did.
Angie and I, relaxing at Raymond Brother's Winery,
after being bitten by a goat . . .
So, "what has been happening?" Life. Good and real life, full of all the ups and downs, happy times, laughter, friends, times of missing other friends and home, restlessness, feeling completely satisfied at other times. But, it's time to minister, to love, and to serve. Now, you can hold me accountable. : )
This was still "all about me." Lord, help me!
Monterey. Can't remember which biologist's home this was,
but he was a friend of Steinbeck's, who also lived in Monterey.
The concrete cubes were where the biologist would hold sea animals
he would study, like octopuses, sharks, etc..
More of Monterey's piers.
Kayaking Elkhorn Slough, near Monterey. Very fun!
Robert Mondavi's vines and grapes.
V. Sattui's cellar.
Angie and I, after biking up to the Hennesy Resevoir
on a scary road without a bike lane!
Jeff and I at Lake Hennesy
Miss you all and sending my love! (Thanks for your interest and for telling me to "update my blog"!)